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[11 Nov 2007|09:28am] things are out of control. i miss my friends and my dog... i want to to stockton. blah a month is so long....nervous break down.... 1 bitches| been slapped

[28 Sep 2007|09:51am] i love being able to come home from work and have a cocktail while doing my homework... it is fabulous! basically life is pretty awesome, besides having 7am class and working all the time. my roommates are tight and i love our apartment! we painted the walls juicy passion fruit and the kitchen is like a turquoise! i really need to get better pictures but whatev! been slapped

[02 Aug 2007|12:36am] [ mood | high ] friends only suckaaa! <3 been slapped

[12 Jul 2007|09:50am] [ mood | lonely ] i got my apartment in san diego! im excited! i could have moved in on tuesday, but im gonna wait till after my birfday. so i think i will leave august 6th.... im kinda scared cause i dont really know the girls that im living with but hopefully it works out! i dont think i can take another bad roommate! the apartment is really cute, http://rasnyder.com/featured_properties.php?id=162# and i have my own room... so come visit! 1 bitches| been slapped

[16 Jun 2007|07:05pm] i just dont know what to do with myself anymore. i need a new job... i want to go back to sd. my life seems so complicated anymore! 1 bitches| been slapped

[14 Jun 2007|10:44pm] people are so fucking shady anymore. im over people being cunty ass bitches. been slapped

[13 May 2007|11:54am] [ mood | calm ] yey. im comnig home in 3 days!!! melissia is going to be here tomorrow to help me move! im really excited, we are gonna go to the zoo and the beach and mexico? packing really sucks.... but im so ready to come home! i will probably be ready to come back to sd in like 2 weeks hahah. oh well! this was pointless but whateverrr been slapped

basically... [29 Apr 2007|08:47pm] people suck, and im over it! boooo i miss my friends! been slapped

i wish... [26 Apr 2007|09:52am] [ mood | annoyed ] my roommate would go to fucking class. grrr i cant stand her!!!! only 3 more weekss! been slapped

i want to come home. [17 Apr 2007|09:52pm] [ mood | melancholy ] i really want to come home. im tured of being here. well i actually love san diego, im just tired of being in the dorms... i hate it so much! i cant stand most of the people, i mean there are a few that i love, but the majority i cant stand... it sucks that i hate my roommate the most. having a shitty roommate has def put a damper on my first year of college. the people here are soo fake, its like get over yourself, you dont know everything, just fucking shut up. blahh im really grouchyy. i dont like april. my grandma would be 90 this thursday.... i miss her soooo much. its almost been a year since she died. i dont know how i made it a year without seeing her or talking to her.hardest thing ever. i jsut want everything to be the way they used to be. i want to be able to go to her house and just talk to her. i have so much to tell her, there is so much i never got to say. when "granny" comes up on my phone, i still hope its her, i knows it not, but i want it to be so bad. i just dont know what to do. i just want to be home and be around people who actually care about me and understand me. no here gets me... i mean i have ariel but she doesnt really understand, and i cant really talk to her about things, our lives are so different. its times like these where i wished i lived closer to home..... i just want to see my friends, i miss them so much and ive only been gone 3 weeks. summer needs to get here faster. oh and why does school have to be so expensive... i dont know how im going to pay for it next year. as it is i cant even pay for it now. im already late on my houseing payment and i hate asking my sister for money... im sure ill be getting some kind on notice in the next couple days... blah. anyone want to give me 600 dollars? ill pay you back...thanks. but yeah and no one wants to give me a lone because i have no credit and i dont make enough money... dont these people understand that im in school full time and i cant freaking work that much. fuckkk it!!! rocci was supposed to come this weekend... but now she cant because she doesnt have the money... im sad, it would have been nice to have her here right now... i wish i had a blunt or some alcohol, man that would be nice. i think im just going to get shit faced this weekend, i dont even care... maybe ill go to la with raj and just get hammered and make a fool of myself as usual, maybe meet a boy,, have fun, then peace out. sounds like a good plan. 2 bitchess| been slapped

[04 Apr 2007|12:50pm] so i got woken up at 4:45 this morning by some dumb ass girl pissing on my floor. yes she was PEEING!!!!! i started screaming at her to stop but she just kept going then pulled up her pants went 2 doors down and pissed in another room. this bitch is crazy. i got out of bed and ran down the hall about to kick her ass, but the RA was there so i didnt. they said she was drunk but i think shes just crazy cause i know a drunk person and she wasnt drunk. oh and the worst thing about it was that she didnt even fucking clean it up... we had to. seriously at least piss on your own floor. fucking dorm life. i still want to beat her ass. totally ruined my day.. i didnt even get to finish my paper and i looked a hot mess all day. been slapped

i mean DAMN TELL ME! [08 Mar 2007|07:23am] [ mood | stressed ] these past few weeks have been really stressful! ugh freaking school and money are lame! i really want to go home... i never thought i would be saying that! i hope the next 2 weeks go by really fast! get ready stockton/ escalon im coming home the 23rd! i sat by the turtle pond yesterday before class... it reminded me of my gradma... i miss her... everything would be so much better if she was still here...... been slapped

[06 Feb 2007|10:32pm] hmm, its been awhile since ive wrote in this thing. well im in my second semester at san diego state, and i love it, well most of the time. i miss my dog and my friends alot! but college is super fun, and there is so much to do here. i feel like ive changed since i came to san diego. ive let alot of things go, and it feels really good.i feel like im back at a good place in my life. im surrounding myself with good people and not being a bitch for once,it feels good... real good. its weird when i was home i was def not the party animal, i didnt drink, party, or anything, all i ever did was smoke, and that wasnt all the time. now im getting drunk, going to frat parties, passing out(not at frats), having random hook-ups,puking in bushes, passing out by the toilet, but hey thats the college life i guess (that all probably sounds really bad, but i promise its not). im not mad at it. im actually having alot of fun! welcome to my life haha 1 bitches| been slapped

[01 Oct 2006|08:19pm] i almost got in a car accident. it was scary. i hope it never happens again. 1 bitches| been slapped

[21 Jun 2006|08:02pm] [ mood | confused ] life is different. alot different. nothing feels the same. oh& im moving to san diego in august. it is going to be amazing. been slapped

[18 Mar 2006|05:28pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ignore last entry] its offical... i got into all offff my schoools!!! yey! im sooo fucking pumped!!! been slapped

[18 Mar 2006|02:43pm] so far i have gotten into all of my schools... now im just waiting for UC san Diego.... i got the acceptance letter from santa barbara and santa cruz this past week... i was mucho excited.! been slapped

[10 Mar 2006|02:45pm] so i got my second college acceptance letter today... so far i have got into san diego state and CSU long beach... its kind of a relief to at least know that i got into some college. i still have yet to hear from UC san diego UC santa barbara and UC santa cruz. i really really want to go to UC san diego... ugh. i dont think ill get in... Im going to san diego and to look at college campus april 8th with my sister.. should be fun.. i predict lote of shopping!!!!! my mom tried to tell me that i dont wanna go to a far away college... then i was like "uhh yeah i do" then she was like no you just think you do. but i really do wanna go away far... i dont like my life here... i need a fresh start. the only thing i will miss from this place is ♥ my dog ♥ my friends ♥ my grandma school has been absolute hell lately. and i cant wait for it to be over. high school just isnt teh place for me... ive been super irritable and stressed. its pretty lame. i need to stop feeling like this. but on a brighter note.... youu know you love it ps- when im in college you should all come visit me... if i like youu... and if i dont.. please do me a favor and stay home! ha. 1 bitches| been slapped

[31 Jan 2006|09:54pm] you are all jealous! ♥ 1 bitches| been slapped

[24 Jan 2006|11:45pm] [ mood | distressed ] i havent wrote in this thing in forever. i feel like my life is crumbling right in front of my eyes. nothing seems to be going right. ima always stressed out about something. be it friends. family. school. if its not one thing its another. my grades are shitty. i have no motivation. all i do is sleep. if i dont get into uc san diego or santa barbara ill be crushed. i admire thoes who can balance their lives. i long to be one of thoes people. i cant wait to get out of this town. i want to be happy. im not the person i used to be. i love ashley parker angel. i need to make a hair appointment. i want something different. im not very creative. any ideas? done. 1 bitches| been slapped

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